Something I Need to Say About Myself

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Duffie

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Once again, thank you all.

I have no regrets, and I'm glad I stuck with this community! :D

I'm so glad I got to "grow up" with such great people. I love you all. :3

Now, I'll get a picture up on Saturday, maybe earlier. o. o

As for the voice... Maybe. :p

Oh, and I still do have long hair, usually in a pony tail, bleached on the tips. I didn't lie about that. :p
 
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Duffie, I think it's great how you have the guts to come out and say this. I was shocked at first, but the ice-cream I was eating at the time calmed me down enough to write this. :p

You've been an amazing friend, and it's awesome that you're now more open to us. Now we can (hopefully) use Skype for MineZ! xD

But more seriously, awesome job man. <3
 
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Somehow I always thought you were a boy. So this doesn't change anything to me. It wouldn't even if I thought you were a girl. You are an awesome person, an awesome drawer and you will always be.

I think gender doesn't matter on the internet, as its all about personality to me. You can be anything you want as long as you are nice and great. (meow). So you will always be that duffie that I see updating his(almost said her's now) status almost every hour =P, the Duffie that I respect and like.

Its great of you that you had the courage to write this. Great job!
This thread reminds me of myself =3
 
K1ngHoward

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what?!? you are a boy? shoot and it took me so long to get used to saying "she" instead of "he" when referring to you. Now you tell me i have to get used to saying "he" again? pshhh nope you're a girl.

(no biggy on my part i usually just refer to people by "he" or "she" on the internet because it makes it easier to identify people since the internet adds a mask to every person. Since i don't think people would like me calling them "it" everywhere i go >.>)
 
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Even though I haven't had much experience with you personally I envy your courage, everyone has secrets, some bigger than others, some people (myself included) have a great many things they'd like to get off their chest but don't have the courage to tell others and it can really hurt when you're in that situation.

Being a rather shy person I personally find it almost impossible to reveal personal things or to make myself 'vulnerable' to others like that and sometimes it can really tear me up inside, especially if it's something really important to me.
I'm rather envious of you since I have almost no courage whatsoever, I can't start a conversation with someone I don't know, I've never even been able to ask anyone on a date, ever, let alone admit I have feelings for them.

Well obviously it's a bit easier on the internet for me because of the semi-anonymity, but still you get the idea.
Hell I spent like an hour editing this, figuring out how much personal stuff to reveal and deciding whether or not I should actually post it at all or just go with something like 'wow you've got a lot of guts, that's so cool' etc

Was originally planning on revealing something else that's actually related to this community and explains why I basically just disappeared suddenly and didn't come back for a year (except to submit my resignation from opping the lava server, uni was an excuse) but I ended up editing it out because even though I know the community would be supportive, it just couldn't bring myself to talk about it, which is pretty frustrating.

Spent a while fighting the urge to completely delete the last paragraph altogether, but I guess I feel as though if I'm gonna chicken out of explaining it then I should at the very least just mention it, otherwise I'd be more disappointed in myself than usual, which is pretty normal for me, so if I actually manage to post this without cutting out half of it although I'll be rather nervous I'll also feel slightly better about myself.

Anyway, I think it's great that you were able to do this, wish I had enough courage to do that (probably used up all mine for the next month just posting this, even after I cut out a major section of it :s).
 
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Oh Duffie... If I may still call you that of course,
I cannot describe the thoughts and emotions such a statement produced by you here can evoke:
As it was truly a statement filled with a sense of utter brilliance, one of shining beauty and innocence, and... just something else I cannot really put my finger on.
It was truly an inspirational and moving message my dear friend, and I must tip my hat off to you for such admirable courage and with such a strong sense of trust that you would confine such a tale to us like we were a second family for you: which no doubt I believe that is what you feel when you look back on this community.
I know I would never have done the same; I could never place feelings that you've written in these words here tonight. With those feelings, I can look up to this strong paragraph and know that it is filled with such a powerful meaning filled with dignity, and I can find the tale even more memorable, and something to be truly proud of.

Honestly, I didn't really pay much attention the first time I read it... I kind of shrugged off the idea. It was just another great thread by Duffie I said: But I did not really paying attention to such kind words stated in it.
As I went back a second time, reading the comments thoroughly, and as I type out this very comment...
I am proud to say that I cried during the whole ordeal.
Why you may ask?
Because Duffie: Though others may not agree, or find this rather cliche in nature...
But You Duffie...
Are a HERO.
You stood up with what you believed was right, and lived it. You came out directly and said it to our faces, not holding back. I don't think a better word could be said to describe what was witnessed here but that.
You truly are a hero Duffie.
And, to my dismay, although in my opinion I do not greatly know you, despite what I believe were some good moments where I felt I got to know you better during recent months, and hope to be proud to be accounted among as one of your friends here at Blocktopia, if that is what you see me as.

You are a great person Duffie, and I wouldn't put it any other way.
Because we are all just people. People who enjoy our time over the internet, with friends and family, to spend wonderful memories in our pixelated worlds with those we enjoy being around.
Though you may not be a girl, that shouldn't change our aspect on how we see you: A great person to be around.
And, from what I am seeing; I am glad that such a community does not truly care what race, gender, or nationality you could be Duffie, or actually anyone for that matter.
Because we are just people behind the screen. Good people, and I hope it stays that way.
You will still be the same, awesome Duffie in our eyes. Remember that.

Although I feel I may have just repeated what has already been said... I felt a need to respond to this thread you've brought to us this night.
For what I mean in this whole comment is what I truly feel and believe.
You are a good person Duffie, and I hope what was said here today doesn't change who you are, and who you want to be.

Now... As the tears stop falling on the gentle pillow...
I have a personal question I would like to ask...
Regarding your name: Darien Greene...
It sounds so familiar, like I've heard it or I've known it from some point in time...
It feels so familiar...
Are you certain we have never met before Duffie?
Perhaps we have not... and I am simply imagining things...
Though mayhaps we have indeed met... Even...
...Even if it was in another lifetime. ;)

Anyways... I thank you for sharing this experience with us Duffie. Though this may sound bad but... I am perhaps a bit glad you did not come forth with this long ago during this "Yunie Incident." I feel... If it did not come out now, I may not have felt like I've gotten to know you quite as well as I would have otherwise.
So... I guess I'm glad to say your still here and with us Duffie, and I hope it stays that way for a long time longer.

Sincerely,
- Your trusty Marsupial Pal : JKangaroo
 
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I've already said this several times, but thank you, once more!

By now, my thanks is probably not much, but it really does mean a lot to me. It's like saying something exceedingly important to someone you know and love, and they understand your situation.

And since I do not know in any other way than the way I currently know to thank you all, I'll just say thank you, and stay with you awesome people. :3

JKangaroo said:
Now... As the tears stop falling on the gentle pillow...
I have a personal question I would like to ask...
Regarding your name: Darien Greene...
It sounds so familiar, like I've heard it or I've known it from some point in time...
It feels so familiar...
Are you certain we have never met before Duffie?
Perhaps we have not... and I am simply imagining things...
Though mayhaps we have indeed met... Even...
...Even if it was in another lifetime. ;)
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I'm not doubting the possibility, considering I'm from Hawaii. Which island are you on? :p

I was born on Oahu, my father side adopted into being German, my mother side being born into being Hawaiian. My father being Greene, mother being Calderon.

Who knows? It's a small world. :laugh:
 
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Duffie, I find you amazing if you are a boy or a girl. Everyone in this community likes you the way you are and nobody (exept for some douchebags maybe) will judge you by your gender ;) I respect you for being this honest with us. Everyone has their secrets (even me :p) You better stay with us for a long time! cause I would hate to see you go!
 
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YUS. PEOPLE MISTAKING YOUR GENDER IS THE BEST. (The joys of my brothers account)

Being completely serious though, this took courage. As everyone as said, no one will look down on you for this, and if they do, they are not even worth your time.
While I don't know you too well, I know your a prominent member of the community who would be sorely missed if you ever left.
This is the Internet. Be who you wanna be, because this is the place where you get the chance to.
You told us the truth. Don't let the past bother you, it's history. What matters is your bravery to do this.
Blocktopia will always be behind you. We aren't going to judge you. Your our friend and will remain that way.
So hats off to you, and keep up the drawing! You certainly have a real talent for it!
 
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roxaschao said:
I really don't see why you were worried about offending anyone, though. There's really nothing offensive about this. :/
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People may have been offended by the fact I lied to them, while I was "playing the act" of good to honest Duffie. I'm still that person, and I assure you, I'll never change. :3

And, off topic from my reply to Roxas, I may have been brave with this situation. But, when I started off, I felt extremely embarrassed, and felt as if I would have regretted posting my story. But, I ended up forcing myself to do it, especially after writing it all down on Word Pad.

I don't know what I was feeling that day, other than the feeling that I wanted it to change. I've always thought about it in the past; heading off to College, becoming someone famous, and having my face as Darien Greene. I would have to cover up some more, if I wanted to stay hidden in this community. But, I didn't want to live that way.

James81818 said:
This is the Internet. Be who you wanna be, because this is the place where you get the chance to.
You told us the truth. Don't let the past bother you, it's history. What matters is your bravery to do this.
Blocktopia will always be behind you. We aren't going to judge you. Your our friend and will remain that way.
So hats off to you, and keep up the drawing! You certainly have a real talent for it!
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Now, I will never let the past remain as history to me. The past, even if covered by a lie, was the best experience I have had. I will continue to live in that experience, but now as a different gender. I enjoyed that life, but now I'm on the act of combining the two together. And since I've done that, I can do a little more than I could before-- Like meet up with people without the shame of showing my true self for the first time. ;)

As for Blocktopia, I will always be apart of it. I may not have been here from the start, but I was here earlier than most. I'll stick with you guys, even if the forums change, or completely die off, because we're all awesome together. :laugh:

Post Script : I'll be doing some things tonight, and I may double post, unless some of you guys would like to add something. :p
 
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Duffs, bro. Don't worry.
I'm sure we all accept you as you are.
Infact, I know a lot of "T-Girls". So, gender things never surprise me. xD

But, I admire the courage you had to say this. I never really spoke to you, I guess. But, from what I've seen, you seem like a lovely guy. But yeah... Don't worry about gender. We're all equally treated, and certainly not sexist.

Tl;dr - We love you, brah. We love you!
 
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