All right, time t’ spill out everything that I’ve felt since I first joined.
I remember back in July 28th, my friends from the wall (small, close community that I was part of before here, got its name from us posting on the “wall” of Chuggaaconroy’s, and later, ProtonJon’s FB, good group of guys, but that community is pretty much dead now) and I tried out the server and I was hooked. I kept tryin’ to see if I could get them to play on it with me since I went on quite a bit, all the way back when it was hard to get into the servers.
I spent so much time on there that I wanted to be trusted, but looking back, that was for the wrong reasons. I managed to get my first reference, Widdish, but that backfired a bit. Pretty much brought my confidence down to the point where I wasn’t too happy when I wanted to ask for references. So my goal then was to try and get handpicked because I was too nervous to ask for references for quite a long time. Because of that, I felt a lot of jealousy toward those that were handpicked because it seemed to be players good at the game that I thought rarely helped, such as Red and Rose (nothing against you guys or anyone else). Looking back, I’m fairly sure that this was because I was too blinded by my goal to see them doing good for the server and turning into great ops. I felt this way because I nearly always tried to have people informed on things, which is why I learned to type as quickly as I did.
The main thing that gave me confidence to apply was when both gassy and Mike approached me to reference me. I’m sure that if that never happened, I probably would have never applied for trusted until it was too late. After them, I went to ask three others, Snowma, kraby, and Alpha, each one agreeing to reference me boosted my confidence even more. I then applied and got trusted. Afterwards though, I fell into that same feeling where I was getting jealous of a lot of my friends getting op while I stayed trusted to the end. Looking back, I wish that I coulda helped more. I saw people breaking the rules but 90% of the time, I let them off with a verbal warning. I warned occasionally, and I don’t think I’ve ever kicked anyone, especially when they crossed the line and spat on it. That might have been because of when I became trusted when the server began to die, that might have been because I was too lenient. But I still wish I coulda gone that extra step.
Another thing is involving my account switch from harmakpaul to HarmakMina. I never actually lost access to harmakpaul, I lied about the whole thing so that I could get my account switched over to my new one without people wondering why I spent a total of $45 on MC, before I came out. I’ll apologize for it, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t do it again if the situation came up.
The only other server I would really say kept my attention for so long was Primordia. At the time, Corpios felt like one of the few things that I had accomplished on all the servers and I’m proud of how it grew to be an official settlement. It was also when I introduced Duderox and EFC to BT, so it was fairly important in that aspect too.
Back before Zombie shut down, I began losing interest in the game because of the lack of players. I was on the verge of leaving back then, but I stuck around, especially after the announcement, since I wanted to stay with the server until it ended. After it closed, I began playing a lot of AoD because of my desire to PvP. That lasted for a few months, but I lost interest. I also managed to get back into JtE and be quartermaster for a whole 2-3 days. Thanks to issues including lag (both from my side or the server’s side), my exponentially increasing interest in competitive SSBM, finding a different server where no one can have better gear than others, and those god-awful towers/staircases/paths in AoD (I could probably go off into a huge rant on those on their own, but that’s for another time, if people actually wanna hear my full opinion on it), I didn’t stick around. Now I think it’s time for me t’ go.
In terms of everything that’s happened, I have one thing to say, quoting what I said in my trusted app and as a status last year.
"It feels strange to stay the same while everyone around you changes. Some learn from bans and become ops later, some are well known but get perma-banned, and some, like me, don't change at all. Interesting way life works, huh?"
So goodbye guys, it’s been good. I’ll stop by every once in a while, but I won’t stick around for anything other than Mafia, and since I missed the signups for the current game, that won’t be for at least a couple months.
Anyway, sorry for draggin' on too long, it looks like my time has come, so I'll be seein' ya later...
-The Time-Traveling Cat/Horse with a bazooka,
Harmak
P.S: It seems everyone's leavin' these days. Ever since Classic lost a lot of popularity, it seems like the place has kept losing more people than gaining them. It's really such a shame.
EDIT: Bah, nearly forgot. If you wanna stay in contact, my Steam account is harmakpaul. Feel free t' add me there.
Fixed your spoiler glitch :] -Damer
Edit: Thanks Damer!
I remember back in July 28th, my friends from the wall (small, close community that I was part of before here, got its name from us posting on the “wall” of Chuggaaconroy’s, and later, ProtonJon’s FB, good group of guys, but that community is pretty much dead now) and I tried out the server and I was hooked. I kept tryin’ to see if I could get them to play on it with me since I went on quite a bit, all the way back when it was hard to get into the servers.
I spent so much time on there that I wanted to be trusted, but looking back, that was for the wrong reasons. I managed to get my first reference, Widdish, but that backfired a bit. Pretty much brought my confidence down to the point where I wasn’t too happy when I wanted to ask for references. So my goal then was to try and get handpicked because I was too nervous to ask for references for quite a long time. Because of that, I felt a lot of jealousy toward those that were handpicked because it seemed to be players good at the game that I thought rarely helped, such as Red and Rose (nothing against you guys or anyone else). Looking back, I’m fairly sure that this was because I was too blinded by my goal to see them doing good for the server and turning into great ops. I felt this way because I nearly always tried to have people informed on things, which is why I learned to type as quickly as I did.
The main thing that gave me confidence to apply was when both gassy and Mike approached me to reference me. I’m sure that if that never happened, I probably would have never applied for trusted until it was too late. After them, I went to ask three others, Snowma, kraby, and Alpha, each one agreeing to reference me boosted my confidence even more. I then applied and got trusted. Afterwards though, I fell into that same feeling where I was getting jealous of a lot of my friends getting op while I stayed trusted to the end. Looking back, I wish that I coulda helped more. I saw people breaking the rules but 90% of the time, I let them off with a verbal warning. I warned occasionally, and I don’t think I’ve ever kicked anyone, especially when they crossed the line and spat on it. That might have been because of when I became trusted when the server began to die, that might have been because I was too lenient. But I still wish I coulda gone that extra step.
Another thing is involving my account switch from harmakpaul to HarmakMina. I never actually lost access to harmakpaul, I lied about the whole thing so that I could get my account switched over to my new one without people wondering why I spent a total of $45 on MC, before I came out. I’ll apologize for it, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t do it again if the situation came up.
The only other server I would really say kept my attention for so long was Primordia. At the time, Corpios felt like one of the few things that I had accomplished on all the servers and I’m proud of how it grew to be an official settlement. It was also when I introduced Duderox and EFC to BT, so it was fairly important in that aspect too.
Back before Zombie shut down, I began losing interest in the game because of the lack of players. I was on the verge of leaving back then, but I stuck around, especially after the announcement, since I wanted to stay with the server until it ended. After it closed, I began playing a lot of AoD because of my desire to PvP. That lasted for a few months, but I lost interest. I also managed to get back into JtE and be quartermaster for a whole 2-3 days. Thanks to issues including lag (both from my side or the server’s side), my exponentially increasing interest in competitive SSBM, finding a different server where no one can have better gear than others, and those god-awful towers/staircases/paths in AoD (I could probably go off into a huge rant on those on their own, but that’s for another time, if people actually wanna hear my full opinion on it), I didn’t stick around. Now I think it’s time for me t’ go.
In terms of everything that’s happened, I have one thing to say, quoting what I said in my trusted app and as a status last year.
"It feels strange to stay the same while everyone around you changes. Some learn from bans and become ops later, some are well known but get perma-banned, and some, like me, don't change at all. Interesting way life works, huh?"
So goodbye guys, it’s been good. I’ll stop by every once in a while, but I won’t stick around for anything other than Mafia, and since I missed the signups for the current game, that won’t be for at least a couple months.
RedShark: Out of everyone here, I always considered you to be one of my closest friends, and I think it might have to do with you being the first person I really met here. I have quite a few good memories with you and I'm not sure if I woulda stayed so long here without you.
Ooglie: Not much I can say to you, we rarely saw each other after early 2012, but those times we had were great. Thanks.
Crash: I always wondered why you didn't get op on Zombie, I saw you doing so much when you were a trusted. I'm really glad that you managed t' get there on JtE. :)
Kraby: No matter where I go or what happens to you, you'll always be my pet krab who gave me a reference. Which means that I was referenced to be staff. By a crab. YES THIS IS WONFDERFUL
Biblius: It's funny how Sancti grew from me asking if I can move onto that island into the giant rule that it has today. T' think it started with you and Silent, and that I was the first citizen was crazy. You were always someone I could see as a leader, and someone close later on in BT's lifespan.
John & Super: If there's one thing I thought I would never see, it was you two as HCs on SMP. But you two got there, and seeing you guys go from someone that I saw join for their first few times to head staff was pretty mind-boggling. And John, thanks for that one comment you made a while ago about how you were kinda surprised that I wasn't trusted when you joined, that probably boosted my confidence a lot.
Gassy & Mike: You two are probably the reason why I ever considered applying for trusted, and you guys were also fun t' hang around, so thanks for that boost.
Alpha & Snow: Thanks for the references guys, I really appreciate it.
Alee: Funny how you were one of my only friends from Lava, since out of th' 3 classic servers, it was the one I visited the least. Once again, it was pretty interesting watching you go from us meeting for the first time on one of your first visits to being a lava op.
Pokemon: I enjoyed our talks about Pokemon and nuzlocke runs, and you were fun t' play with on the server.
Gear: Thanks for the chats and the games, those memories were great.
Zombie Staff: You guys did a great job, and thanks for the opportunity.
Evershed & Super_Koray: Like Alee, you guys were probably my only friends from Prim and I'd say that we bonded quite a bit on the server.
Musta, Dynasty & 77: You guys are probably the only ones I could talk about Mindcrack with. I'll probably still post a status every time an episode of UHC goes up so we could still chat about it. Don't think any UHC will manage to beat what 11 brought us though.
To everyone else I didn't mention, it's not because I don't remember, I actually wish I could put on more here. It's really because at this point, I'll be saying the exact same thing over and over again. Not being on here doesn't mean anything. I love you all the same.
One more thing before I go. To those ex-Zombie staff and regulars, what did you think of my abilities as staff, did you think I deserved it, and would you have referenced me earlier/later/not at all in comparison to when I posted my app, and why? I know this is kinda off-topic, but it's the biggest thing that's been eating away at me for a long time and this will probably be the last time I ever have the chance to ask this. And please don't hold back with th' answers, I don't care if you say I never deserved it as long as you say why so that I can work on improving that later in life. Sorry for askin' this question since it seems kinda selfish for a goodbye post.
Ooglie: Not much I can say to you, we rarely saw each other after early 2012, but those times we had were great. Thanks.
Crash: I always wondered why you didn't get op on Zombie, I saw you doing so much when you were a trusted. I'm really glad that you managed t' get there on JtE. :)
Kraby: No matter where I go or what happens to you, you'll always be my pet krab who gave me a reference. Which means that I was referenced to be staff. By a crab. YES THIS IS WONFDERFUL
Biblius: It's funny how Sancti grew from me asking if I can move onto that island into the giant rule that it has today. T' think it started with you and Silent, and that I was the first citizen was crazy. You were always someone I could see as a leader, and someone close later on in BT's lifespan.
John & Super: If there's one thing I thought I would never see, it was you two as HCs on SMP. But you two got there, and seeing you guys go from someone that I saw join for their first few times to head staff was pretty mind-boggling. And John, thanks for that one comment you made a while ago about how you were kinda surprised that I wasn't trusted when you joined, that probably boosted my confidence a lot.
Gassy & Mike: You two are probably the reason why I ever considered applying for trusted, and you guys were also fun t' hang around, so thanks for that boost.
Alpha & Snow: Thanks for the references guys, I really appreciate it.
Alee: Funny how you were one of my only friends from Lava, since out of th' 3 classic servers, it was the one I visited the least. Once again, it was pretty interesting watching you go from us meeting for the first time on one of your first visits to being a lava op.
Pokemon: I enjoyed our talks about Pokemon and nuzlocke runs, and you were fun t' play with on the server.
Gear: Thanks for the chats and the games, those memories were great.
Zombie Staff: You guys did a great job, and thanks for the opportunity.
Evershed & Super_Koray: Like Alee, you guys were probably my only friends from Prim and I'd say that we bonded quite a bit on the server.
Musta, Dynasty & 77: You guys are probably the only ones I could talk about Mindcrack with. I'll probably still post a status every time an episode of UHC goes up so we could still chat about it. Don't think any UHC will manage to beat what 11 brought us though.
To everyone else I didn't mention, it's not because I don't remember, I actually wish I could put on more here. It's really because at this point, I'll be saying the exact same thing over and over again. Not being on here doesn't mean anything. I love you all the same.
One more thing before I go. To those ex-Zombie staff and regulars, what did you think of my abilities as staff, did you think I deserved it, and would you have referenced me earlier/later/not at all in comparison to when I posted my app, and why? I know this is kinda off-topic, but it's the biggest thing that's been eating away at me for a long time and this will probably be the last time I ever have the chance to ask this. And please don't hold back with th' answers, I don't care if you say I never deserved it as long as you say why so that I can work on improving that later in life. Sorry for askin' this question since it seems kinda selfish for a goodbye post.
-The Time-Traveling Cat/Horse with a bazooka,
Harmak
P.S: It seems everyone's leavin' these days. Ever since Classic lost a lot of popularity, it seems like the place has kept losing more people than gaining them. It's really such a shame.
EDIT: Bah, nearly forgot. If you wanna stay in contact, my Steam account is harmakpaul. Feel free t' add me there.
Fixed your spoiler glitch :] -Damer
Edit: Thanks Damer!
Bye and good luck in life!
