CaffeinatedKitty
Intoxicated Feline
((YES SHH I'M WORKING ON A REPLY TO THIS AND WONDERFUL MINDS AT THE SAME TIME K))((speaking of which....HI IS ARE THINGS GOING TO HAPPEN THERE))
((YES SHH I'M WORKING ON A REPLY TO THIS AND WONDERFUL MINDS AT THE SAME TIME K))((speaking of which....HI IS ARE THINGS GOING TO HAPPEN THERE))
((are you going to date your older self, what.))"Excuse me..." Alouette only half-whispers. Even thinking about what news Airis might bring makes her feel sick...
Reaching up to grip her pendant as she walks away, she concentrates on the barely-there murmurs of her past selves.
"I'm sorry it had to end this way..."
Phantom fingertips brush her cheeks, running just below her eyes, wiping away tears she hadn't realized were forming.
Sitting on the ground at the base of a tree, she closes her eyes and tips her head back to rest against the bark. Everything seems to be happening at once, and none of it is helping steady her already unstable emotions.
She takes a deep breath; lets it out. Her fist rests just at her collarbone, the tiny turquoise heart almost beginning to leave an imprint in her palm just from the strength of the hold she's keeping on it.
She isn't in immediate danger, and intellectually, she knows it; that doesn't help. Still, her heart races, her hands tremble, she's sure she much paler than normal.
Yet somehow- with a faint feeling of unease, knowing that this isn't how she should be acting- sleep wraps around her and pushes away the outside world.
...
It's another dream world; this time she stands on wooden slats, the sound of the ocean just yards away filling the air.
"Alouette!"
She turns at the shout, and he- she doesn't know how she knows, but it's Jonah this time- grabs her shoulders, looking her over.
Startled at the sudden contact, she flinches. It takes her a moment to relax--helped by the fact that he looks so much like Ionas, though his hair is much lighter and straighter. "What?"
He just pulls her close, wrapping his arms tight around her shoulders. "I should've seen this coming..." he mumbles forlornly, "I'm sorry..."
"How...?" She asks, hesitantly resting her forehead on his shoulder. "How would you have seen any of this coming?" He's another of her aspect, she knows-knows- she can trust him.
"It's a strange thing." he admits freely, "You pick up a lot of ways to read peoples' actions when you've lived so many lives."
She only sighs, wearily closing her eyes. "And I suppose that means you'll scold me for being a fool?"
"No, not even close!" He's much more lighthearted, much more energetic than Ionas. "No, you're not nearly as old as I. I don't blame you."
Stepping back, his hands on her shoulders once again, he surveys her expression; vaguely sad, her eyes tired, she just looks back at him blankly.
"It's okay..." He says, hugging her once again, downy gray wings folding around the both of them. "You just have to learn... You can't fix everyone. You might feel like you love him, but if it's putting this much stress on you, it's really not worth it."
She just stands still, not accepting the embrace but not denying it. "...you sound like you know."
"Funny thing, that." His voice is tinged with sadness. "I do."
"I'm sorry..."She sighs softly. "I guess it's just..."
"No, unlike with you, it was my fault." His tone turns melancholy, almost... wistful? "I knew it was just going to hurt me in the end... I knew he was too far gone to be saved. But I still tried." His voice is pained, and she's sure his expression would read the same. "We both need to learn, I guess... We can't help everyone."
He doesn't completely let go- he must need physical contact as much as she at very least used to- but he does lean back again to look directly at her. Raising a hand, he gently taps her forehead. "Go on and sleep. You must need it."
Feeling at least a little better, she nods, stepping back. Everything starts to blur; she makes out a flash of movement at his chest height and figures he must've waved as she fades from the dream.
She waves back, unsure if she imagines the whisper of 'good night.'
...
((ew points of view I almost shifted into both first and second while I was writing this brain staaaahhhp this is third person
in other news, yaaay dreamscapes and past selves
Ansoro2112 S_swimmer primarily but @otherpeopletooIguess))
((edit: oh jfc if there ever was a wall of text gotta fix this))
((editedit: NO WONDER THIS TOOK ME LIKE THREE HOURS I JUST GO ON AND ON DON'T I))
"No, unlike with you, it was my fault." His tone turns melancholy, almost... wistful? "I knew it was just going to hurt me in the end... I knew he was too far gone to be saved. But I still tried." His voice is pained, and she's sure his expression would read the same. "We both need to learn, I guess... We can't help everyone."
His tone turns melancholy, almost... wistful? "I knew it was just going to hurt me in the end... I knew he was too far gone to be saved. But I still tried." His voice is pained, and she's sure his expression would read the same.
"I knew it was just going to hurt me in the end... I knew he was too far gone to be saved. But I still tried."
I knew he was too far gone to be saved.
I knew he was too far gone to be saved.
I knew he was too far gone to be saved.
((I was waiting for people to take slow notice of the fact that the sky seems to be clearing, actually :/))[I'm waiting on Faliara to do the sky thing before continuing]
((It was meant as an unserious for fuck's sake.))((No jfc there is this thing called a P L A T O N I C R E L A T I O N S H I P))
((I'M CURED DAMNIT.))((Plus y'know))
((HEY GUESS WHAT THAT WAS MEANT AS A "IT WOULDN'T HAPPEN ANYWAY BECAUSE JONAH IS HELLA GAY"))((I'M CURED DAMNIT.))
((I KNOW, IT WAS MEANT AS A BLOODY JOKE.))((HEY GUESS WHAT THAT WAS MEANT AS A "IT WOULDN'T HAPPEN ANYWAY BECAUSE JONAH IS HELLA GAY"))
((ttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttfzsdz((uh, mr. flashback guy, your backstory is BEING A MURDERER))